Happy birthday, mile.

Mile is one of my friends in the office. Special post for the birthday boy. I don't have that many picture of him, so here are the stolen pictures from his facebook. theehee.

And some pictures from my file. haha. Ayon's happy smile and mile was napping in the office.

A guy who deserve to dump. Personal opinion.

1. A guy who ask you to be what he wanted to be even though he knew that you hate it. Dump him. seriously. If he loves you, he'll accept you as who you are.

2. A guy who dictate your social life. People have life, friends and family. Sometimes your friendships are longer than your relationship. You gonna need your friends after all, trust me. never, never ever sacrifice your friendship for your relationship. He has to accept your friends too. He got a right to remind you, but not over rule it. you decided who you wanna make a friend with. people are far from perfect, okay.

3. Abusive boyfriend. No matter how bad your mistakes or how tempered he was, HE HAS NO RIGHT TO HARM YOU! Not even in words form. If he accidentally punched you, you broke your neck and dead, then he also can say "Sorry, I was pissed, I couldn't controlled my emotion" fuck him. well, sometimes we're women easily feel sorry after he apologize. you need to know your limit. don't let love fools you. He's no one and have no right to harm you in any way.

4. Receiving guy. Life is about take and give. You take your chance for education from your mom, in return you give her a good mark. you sacrifice time, money and energy, he needs to do the same thing. relationship is not just about you or him, is about two person who sustain it together.

5. Disloyal boyfriend. I found there are two reasons why a guy decided to cheat on his girl, first because you dictated him. you might too override him, so he decided to find someone else that can make him feel comfy to run his life. Second, because he can't live with only one girl. If he's the second type, dump him! If he's the first time, you might need to reflect yourself and give him some space with his things.

6. Unsupportive guy. For certain things, it's good to have that manner. People have passion, even sometimes it looks like it's impossible, odd, weird, or unsuitable for you. live your life. you only have one shot, so use your chance wisely. The situation is, if you love basketball, and he hates girls who play basketball. come one, you love your things way before you have your relationship. its not a bad thing tho, it just your passion. go with it. he loves cars and you were there to support him, why he just can't do the same?

Another fall / winter editorial shoot.

Finally, done another shoot with Rachael and Lisa yesterday.

And some of the finished images.

Here goes the recap for the last couple of weeks. I've been extremely busy with works, didn't have much time for blogging.

So my boyfriend surprised me a week ago. He came all the way to KL earlier than he planned. It was 3 am in the morning when I received his phone call, said that he's on his way to my apartment. I felt like punch him on the face coz I've been so worried all night when he said he's on his way to see a doctor, in fact, he's on his way to see me!

Fausa, Audi, Lim, Lisa, Merlin..

We travelled a lot and had a long talk about recent life and future. It hurts so bad when I looked at him went through the departing hall, I really wished I could freeze the time that day.

Anyway, life goes on. He's coming back here sooner or later. hehe.

The colors of fall.

Fall/winter editorial shoot. I accidentally found this awesome place not so far from my house back home. I don't have that much time for behind the shoot picture for this session because I have to race with the weather that turned out dark once we reached the place. Sucky weather.

I am glad 'coz I have all the pictures that I wanted after all. Here goes some of the finished images.

It took me quiet a while to get all the pictures done. Works and uni have been hectic, I barely got time for picture editing, not even for quick post. Will be back with more news. hugs.

Blog award.

Thank you so much gogo for the award. hugs. This is what she called Hottest Female Blogger.

Menurut ketentuan yang saya copy-paste dari gogo:

1. Banner award tidak boleh diubah, baik tulisan, warna, dan signaturenya. Kalau resize gambar boleh.

2. Tuliskan siapa yang ngasih award dan URL-nya >> Gogo

3. Pilih 10 female blogger yang kamu kenal dan belum nerima award ini, dan sebutin alasan kenapa dia layak ngedapetin award ini.

Here goes another 10 hottest female bloggers yang saya pilih:

1. ica

2. Shierly

3. sca

4. Shella

5. Annie

6. Ariel

7. Stephanie

8. Shinta

9. Alanna

10. Ajeng

and the reason why I chose them is because they have the hot looking face and brains. Its a deadly combination! Read their story, including the one who gave me this awards, its addictive.

Test Shoot.

I had a test shoot for La Senza with Rachael Ward last Sunday. The shoot was great, I had a great team's supports during the shoot, I'm gonna meet her again this 27 for another shoot. I also had numbers of commercial shoot over the last few weeks, but as I said, I couldn't post anything yet until the actual publication out, so have to save behind the scene and all for the next few weeks before I can really upload it here. Here goes some of the finished images.

La Senza Couture

Photography and post processing - me

Makeup and hair - Fernika Thomas

First assistant and lighting - Lisa Chan

Model - Rachael Ward

Idul Fitri

Listening to Landon Pigg - Sailed On

This year is special. I've met new people (not forget to mention the special one), learnt loads of things and business, business been good. I'm working on some editorial shoots, and thank god for given me those chances. I hope I still can celebrate the next Idul Fitri next year.

By the way, I'm going back to Medan tonight, only for a couple of days, but I'm sure I'm gonna have loads of fun! I can't wait to meet old friends and fams. I miss Indonesia cuisine so much. No offense but Malaysian food sucks. seriously. I rather choose to spend some times to cook my own lunch or dinner instead of having those mamak crappy food down stairs. Especially in my hostel that I living in now, the foods are nasty.

Anyway, for those who celebrate it, Minal aidin walfaidzin, mohon maaf lahir batin. Happy holiday folks!

Confession.

reading gogo's blog remind me of my love story.

So here goes my confession.

I was still in primary six and he was in high school. He's 5 years older than me. It was seven years ago when a friend of mine said "that's Fausa, my brother's friend.." and I captured those moments on my head. I had no idea why, but I guess I know now..

One day, I stumbled across his facebook page. It was not an incident, not because I was introduced by mutual friends. It because I looked for it. Yes. I've been looking for that guy that I saw seven years ago, and I found him.

I guess I'm so lucky coz seven years ago my friend mentioned his name, and sca, she forced me to make a facebook account and it was a boredom afternoon until I decided to search him on facebook. Sometimes love comes in a funny way.

dan aku ga nyesel nyari kamu di facebook waktu itu.. I'm so lucky to have you now.. met 4 bulanan =]

Love note.

Sometimes it is fun to have a long distance relationship. I always love the feeling every time we met after a month or two, but yes, it can be very frustrating too.

Like today. It is your birthday and we're apart.

I really wished I was there with you.

Happy birthday love. *missing you here.

editorial.

Beauty shoot.

Taken from old files. I really wished I can post this out earlier, but sometimes even behind the scene aren't allowed until the actual publication's out.

Photography, styling, make up, hair and post production - me

Model - Beata Michalska.

10 Thousand Volts Project.

Updated from uni, lame internet connection.

I couldn't find behind the scene shots for this session. I think I accidentally deleted the files during the stupid incident a few weeks ago. So what's up with the project? I was really wanna take a shoot with this theme since years ago, but never really got a time to do it. My previous attempt turned out sucks and blurry, but I love the final result for this one.

It will definitely goes into my site gallery. I really need to update the gallery soon.